Nothing but the blood

I need to write about my God today. I have mixed emotions about everything else so I come back to the rock. The rest is sand and it can’t be trusted. It moves around with the wind and changes everyday. But not God. He is the same yesterday, today and tomorrow. The Alpha and the Omega. He doesn’t change like shifting shadows. And He can be trusted.

On my way to work this morning, Nick and I were quiet because our minds were full and spilling out our thoughts at that stage wouldn’t have helped. We were deep in our own minds and probably both praying. Then God used Gareth Cliff to speak to us. I laugh as I write this because people doubt the sovereignty of God, and here God uses South Africa’s best known atheist to speak to us. Somebody who denies God often was used by the God he denies. The irony was amazing to me.

We have had miracle after miracle happen recently. It’s the kind of miracle that happens when you need to cross a raging river by walking on the rocks, but there is only one rock at a time for you to stand on. As you step off that rock into the torrent, the next rock appears from under the water and you say “Phew. If that rock didn’t appear, I would’ve drowned in these rapids.” There are two ways of looking at these kinds of miracles. You can either be in awe of God that even the rocks obey Him as He raises them up under your feet just before you fall and drown. Or you can be angry. Why is there no bridge? Why must every step I take be so frightening. Why must my veins be pumping with adrenalin everyday because of the fear of my next step when others are driving across this torrent on a beautiful well-lit, engineer-designed bridge.

First off, you need to realise that the bridge you see others crossing is an illusion set up to trip you up by the enemy. Yes, we have an enemy. The Bible says he prowls around like a lion seeking whom he may devour. His native tongue is lying. You can be sure that every time he whispers anything in your ear, it’s a lie because that’s the only language he speaks. The Bible says he seeks only 3 things - to steal from you, to kill you and to destroy you. You can’t forget about him. He wants your faith, he wants your hope and ultimately he wants your soul and he’ll do anything to get it using his most powerful tool - lies. That beautiful bridge you think others are walking on is a lie. Everyone has their own set of stepping stones across the torrent. Many fall and are carried away, but the just shall live by faith! Come on! I want to shout it out like Braveheart “The juuusssttt shall livvvee byyy FAITH!”

As born again believers, we have two choices everyday – Am I going to live today in faith or in fear? Only two choices. You are living by one of them whether you realise it or not. You can recognise fear in the fact that you try and retain control over everything because you don’t really trust God with it. The words of fear are “God, I’ll just hang onto this one because I think I know better what needs to happen here than you do. You can have the unimportant stuff. This is too important to trust you with.” And you recognise faith with the words “I am not my own. I trust you. Not my will, but yours."

Faith can only come when the gospel is deeply rooted in your heart. The gospel is not just necessary for justification and then we leave it behind. No! It is the gospel that justifies and it is the gospel that sanctifies. You don’t say to a new born again believer “Ok, you have heard the Gospel, you have accepted Jesus, you are now justified by your faith. The cross has done its work, let’s move on! Now we teach you how you are supposed to live according to the bible.” No! The Bible says that the Gospel is the POWER OF GOD UNTO SALVATION.” In other words it is the only power that takes us to our salvation.

What is salvation? Many will say salvation happens the moment you are born again but salvation is far more all encompassing than that moment. According to the word of God it is

1)      Righteousness (justification)

2)      Sanctification (more of Christ in your life and less of you) and

3)      Redemption (being raised up on that last day.

Salvation consists of all three of these things. So if the Gospel is the power of God unto salvation that means the gospel is required every single step of the way in our journey. We need to constantly be reminded of the cross, of the lamb who was slain before the foundation of the worth, of the power of the blood sacrifice that was made on our behalf and of the fact that we are made righteous because of what Christ did that day at Calvary. We are righteous because of Him. From that place of constant awe at the gospel comes the power unto salvation, which includes righteousness, sanctification and redemption.

Something hit me like a ton of bricks last night when I was thinking about these things and talking to some friends. The power for change is in the cross. No amount of teaching will bring the power required for change, it doesn’t matter how brilliant a teacher you are. All teaching should start with “This is what Christ did. Because of what He did, you are justified by the pure and powerful blood of the lamb and you are made righteousness. Your sin is therefore not counted against you. Can you believe such grace? THEREFORE… (and the teaching about what the bible says about holy living should start).” Most preaching today around the world starts after the THEREFORE and leaves the first part out… The gospel is used once off for salvation and then the teaching and preaching is separate from the gospel. This is not what the bible teaches. The gospel is to be front centre everytime we meet anywhere in his name. It is the starting point and the ending point. In between, the bible teaching happens but it happens on top of the foundation of the gospel. So the gospel is actually the middle point as well.

Once you are a born again believer, the gospel never gets old. It has the power to grip your heart anytime of the day and no matter how often you hear it. Never will a born again believer say “Oh no, is this preacher talking about the cross again (sigh)?” If they do, then I have to doubt whether they are in fact born again. The gospel unlike anything else in this world grows in power in our heart the more we hear it, it does not lose its power because of “over-use.” Never, as preachers, should we think “My preach was about the gospel last week, so I can’t go with that subject again. I need fresh material. No, we preach the gospel every week. Not as an add on at the end of the preach aimed at justification of non-believers, but as the power unto salvation which includes the sanctification of the believers who are sitting there.

Now that I have finished writing this, I have quickly googled to see if someone else has said it better than me and I found good old Spurgeon. Many, many years ago...There is nothing new under the sun – just a constant enemy who knows where the power lies and will do anything to avert the eyes of the church off the cross and onto ‘christian living’.

“Leave Christ out of the preaching and you shall do nothing. Only advertize it all over London, Mr. Baker, that you are making bread without flour; put it in every paper, “Bread without flour” and you may soon shut up your shop, for your customers will hurry off to other tradesmen. . . . A sermon without Christ as its beginning, middle, and end is a mistake in conception and a crime in execution. However grand the language it will be merely much-ado-about-nothing if Christ be not there. And I mean by Christ not merely his example and the ethical precepts of his teaching, but his atoning blood, his wondrous satisfaction made for human sin, and the grand doctrine of “believe and live.”

Cliches - how true are they?

I was thinking today about some of things we say and realised that so many clichés are simply not true. It’s amazing how when something gets said often enough, we start to assume it’s truth. The fact is that when something does not line up with the word of God, it simply is not true. God is not wrong - we are. Let’s play the truth game.

When someone shows you who they are, believe them - NOT TRUE

This one basically means that you are only supposed to give someone one chance. Once they mess up, they’re out. You don’t see them as a person who made a stuff up, you see them as a person who is a stuff up. This is the pole opposite to what the Bible says.

“The Peter asked, “Lord, how often should I forgive someone who sins against me? Seven times?” “No, not seven times but seventy times seven times!” Therefore the Kingdon of Heaven can be compared to a king who decided to bring his accounts up to date with servants who had borrowed money from him. In the process, one of his debtors was brought in who owed him millions. He couldn’t pay, so his master ordered that he be sold – along with his wife, his children and everything he owned - to pay the debt. But the man fell before his master and begged him “Please be patient with me, and I will pay it all” Then the master was filled with pity for him and released him and forgave his debt. But when the man left the king, he went to a fellow servant who owed him a few thousand dollars. He grabbed him by the throat and demanded instant payment. His fellow servant fell down before him and begged for a little more time: “Be patient with me, and I will pay it,” he pleaded. But his creditor wouldn’t wait. He had the man arrested and put in prison until the debt could be paid in full. When some of the other servants saw this, they were very upset. They went to the king and told him everything that had happened. Then the king called in the man he had forgiven and said “You evil servant! I forgave you that tremendous debt because you pleaded with me. Shouldn’t you have mercy on your fellow servant, just as I have had mercy on you? Then the angry king sent the man to prison to be tortured until he had paid his entire debt. That’s what your heavenly Father will do to you if you refuse to forgive your brothers and sisters from the heart.” Matt 18 v 21

Where there is smoke, there is fire – NOT TRUE

The truth is that where there is smoke, there is smoke. Only God knows if there’s fire. One thing I’ve learnt is that no matter how many rumours or how bad the gossip, nobody knows the real story. Most of the time, we’ve only heard one side of the story and the Bible clearly says “The one who states his case first seems right, until the other comes and examines him.” (Proverbs 18 v 17) There may be lots of smoke, but only God knows what really happened and especially WHY! The Lord says we are not allowed to judge the motives of others. In other words, the minute we say “I know why they did that”, we are sinning. 1 Thes 2 v 4 says God alone examines the motives of our hearts.

Safe upon the solid rock, the ugly houses stand. Come and see my shining palace built upon the sand – NOT TRUE

This is a saying I lived by during the beginning of my University years and I’ve got to say: it is the most stupid of them all. No matter how shining your palace is, if it’s built on sand it’s gonna be rubble when the storms come - underwater, smashed up and broken to pieces. Because my husbands a builder, I’ve learnt that we need to check the ground under any house before we start. If it’s too sandy, we may build a “palace’ on it but it will crack and break and soon look like the Addams Family house. That’s what happens to any house that is not built on the foundation of Jesus Christ who the Bible calls “the rock” (1 Corinthians 10 v 4 and many other places in the Bible).

The Bible says: “Anyone who listens to my teaching and obeys it is wise, like a person who builds a house on solid. Though the rain comes in torrents and the floodwaters rise and the wind beats against that house, it won’t collapse because it is built on bedrock. But anyone who hears my teaching and doesn’t obey is foolish, like a person who builds a house on sand. When the rains and floods come and the winds beat against that house, it will collapse with a mighty crash.”- Matthew 7 v 24-27

Forgive, but don’t forget – NOT TRUE

1 Corinthians v 4 says that “Love keeps no record of being wronged.” This is a tough one. When someone wrongs us, as humans we love to put it in our pocket and save it for a rainy day. Next time they make us angry, we dust off everything that we’ve saved in our pocket and show it to them. Our little record of wrongs. God says no, we are not to keep a record of wrongs. With forgiveness, comes forgetting and most importantly, A CLEAN SLATE. Everyday. If God’s mercies are new every morning, then ours should be as well. New every morning for anyone who needs it. Mercy is not holding someone’s sin against them. God shows us mercy and we are to do the same.

He says He our sins from us “as far as the east is from the west” (Psalm 103 v 12) and he says “I will never remember their sins.” (Hebrews 8 v 12).

We are to forgive in the “same way” that God forgives us, and that is remember it no more.

Trust no-one, love few, learn to paddle your own canoe – NOT TRUE

We are not supposed to love “few”, we are supposed to love everyone – even our enemies.

Jesus says “You have heard that the law says ‘love your neighbour’ and hate your enemy. But I say, love your enemies! Pray for those who persecute you! In that way, you will be acting as true children as your Father in heaven. For He gives sunlight to both the evil and the good, and he sends rain on the just and the unjust alike. If you love only those who love you, what reward is there in that? Even corrupt tax collectors do that much. If you are kind to only your friends, how are you different from anyone else? Even pagans do that. But you are to be perfect, even as your Father in heaven is perfect” – Matt 5 v 43 – 48

And now that we know we need to love, we know also that we always need to trust because in 1 Corinthians 13, it says “Love always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.” When you do not trust someone, you are not operating in God’s perfect love. We are called to trust and believe the best of people and God will judge and discipline. So often we try and take God’s job over...

God helps those who help themselves – NOT TRUE

Do you know how many people believe this little one? Some people even say it is in the Bible! It isn’t. The Bible in fact tells us the exact opposite of this. The fact is that God helps those who seek first His Kingdom:

“So don’t worry about these things saying “What will we eat? What will we drink? What will we wear? These things dominate the thoughts of unbelievers, but your heavenly Father already knows all your needs. Seek first the Kingdom and His righteousness, and He will give you everything you need.” Matthew 6 v 31

If you have a personality that likes to always have everything under your control , ie “I trust myself, more than I trust God” then this scripture will make you uncomfortable… But it is in the Bible and it is true. If we seek first the Kingdom of God and His righteousness, God promises to meet our needs. If we don’t believe Him, then we need to speak to Him and ask Him to help us in this area to trust Him enough to seek first His kingdom and not seek first “helping ourselves” because nowhere in the Bible does it say “God helps those who help themselves…”

Charity begins at home – NOT TRUE

This one basically means that we only look out for the needs of ourselves and our family. Everyone else must look out for themselves. This is so not how the Kingdom of God works. While we are definitely called to look after our family, we are also called to look after our family in the Kingdom of God.

“When God’s people are in need, be ready to help them.” - Romans 12 v 13

“And all the believers met together in one place, and shared everything they had. They sold their property and possessions and shared the money with those in need” Acts 2 v 45

“If anyone gives you even a cup of water because you belong to me, they will not be without their reward.” – Mark 9 v 41

“If you help the poor, you are lending to the Lord – and he will repay you!” – Proverbs 19 v 17 (I love that one. What a beautiful promise from our Lord.)

Eye for an eye – NOT TRUE

Eye for an eye leaves the world blind. In the old testament, before Jesus had died and risen and paid the price for the sins of all who believe in Him, they use the words “eye for an eye.” In the New Testament, it says “You have heard the law that says the punishment must match the injury: ‘An eye for an eye, and a tooth for a tooth.” But I say, do not resist an evil person! If someone slaps you on the right cheek, offer the other cheek also. If you are sued in court and your shirt is taken from you, give your coat too. If a soldier demands that you carry his gear for a mile, carry it two miles. Give to those who ask, and don’t turn away from those who want to borrow.” – Matt 5 v 38 - 42

And Romans 13 v 17 says “Do not repay evil with evil,” so the Bible is clear on this point.

Sum up

Nobody can live the way the Bible says if we are not in Christ and He is not in us. We can try, but we will fail. The standard is too high. The good news is that it is Christ who saves and the minute we are born again, we are made righteous! All our sins are washed away as far as the east is from the west. Do we then suddenly behave like perfect people – No. But because of the precious blood of Jesus that paid the price for every sin we will ever commit, God sees us as righteous. We’re still sinners, but it’s paid for. It’s remembered no more. And from the moment we are born again, God starts a process with us called sanctification. Christ living in us starts to show in our lives and people will start to see the evidence of that because we will do things differently to the way of the world. Outside of Christ, we have no chance of ever getting it right. No amount of “human will” is enough.

The starting point is here: “For God so loved the world, that He gave His one and only begotten Son, that whosoever believes in Him, will not perish but have everlasting life.” So the one requirement is to believe, then God takes over and does the rest as you yield to Him and His ways.

One rotten apple...

It’s been a while since my last blog, because I don’t write one unless I have something worth saying. Today I think I do.

I saw two of my friend’s facebook statuses this morning that got me thinking:

1. Eph 3:10: The thing that God has chosen to usher His glory in on the earth is the CHURCH (ekklessia- corporate), not the individual saint. Loving sons give themselves to their heavenly Fathers purposes, the way He has chosen them to. If you love God, you will give yourself too, and for the church, just like Gods first Son (Jesus) did – Andrew Selley

2. My laptop said to me this morning “Plug in or look for an alternative power source.” It reminded me I need to plug into God as my power source – Adam Helyer

And people say Facebook isn’t good for anything ;)

Nick and I are not content with mediocre. Both of us are always wanting more. When our marriage gets into a rut, we’re both quick to say “Let’s make it awesome.” When we see we’ve slipped behind in any area - be it parenting, work, play, fitness, social life or living for God, it bothers us because we have high expectations of ourselves, and life. Most of our conversations consist of “This is wrong, this has to change, we have to get better at that, this is not good enough. We suck!!” LOL…

After reading those 2 statuses today, something hit me like a ton of bricks - you can’t change the fruit on a tree. The fruit is either rotten or healthy because of the root. You can point to the fruit everyday and say “That’s not good fruit. How do we change that? Let’s work on an action plan!” But you will never be able to get the fruit healthy if your root is not getting the water to sustain it. End of.

We are the king and queen of trying to change the fruit and somewhere along the line, we both forgot to focus on the root. As a result, for example, one of us decides we want to get fit (a fruit) and we do it for a while and then stop because there is no underlying life to sustain it. Or we decide we want to change something that’s bad about our character and it lasts a day before it pops back up. Or we decide we want to be a godly spouse - which isn’t easy! A godly wife respects, honours and submits to her husband as head of the home and a godly husband lays his life down and loves his wife in the same way that Christ loves the church! I mean come on – it’s not for the faint-hearted. We manage it for a (short) while and then stop because we’re only human and how long can you get something right using your own strength?

We also haven’t been very focused on church life lately and our subconscious excuse has been “We’re just going to sort out the fruit and then we can concentrate on the root.” WRONG ORDER!

Over coffee this morning (and a few of my tears), we realised that God has never once left us? Not ever. He’s like a loving father to us. He disciplines us but even with that, he puts boundaries in place and makes sure we are always looked after. It’s like us grounding our son to teach him something but still making sure he has a roof and meals and all our love at his disposal. It’s the controlled discipline of a loving Father that leads to repentance and abundant life! (The bible says the Lord disciplines those he LOVES and he punishes everyone he accepts as a son - Hebrews 12v6). It basically hit home that we can not change the fruit in our lives. We can only make sure that we are plugged into the power source so living waters are flowing through us to sustain healthy fruit. Everytime we want to change something about our life or about ourselves (which is daily for us), we need to say “Let's get back to the power source.” Not come up with an action plan. Because when you are plugged into the power source, the bad things give you up and the good things flourish. No effort required.

John 15 v 5 says: “I am the vine; you are the branches. If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing.” So what is the one thing that is required of us in order to bear much fruit? Remain in Him.

Thankyou Lord for the lightbulb moments that make things clear. And thankyou that you “who began a good work in us, will carry it onto completion until the day of Christ Jesus.” (Philippians 1 v 6) You won't relent until it's done.

Cry of my heart

By the time I get home in December, I will have spent more than 100 days away from my children this year. Is it something I would’ve chosen, no. But am I grateful that I had such a well paying job in this economy. Yes.

It has been one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to especially because I can not properly explain to them. I can’t say “Mommy and Daddy want to do everything we can to make sure you don’t go without. Everything we do is for you. We will make some bad choices and some good choices, but the heart behind all we do is love for you.” No, to them I’m just a mom who was there one day and gone the next – and that kills me. I actually have to force myself not to think about it because it’s like a dam wall that if I allow one trickle through, it’s going to burst and I’ll just be swept away with emotions that are too big for my little heart to take.

I have had a lot of time to think though about the things that are important and how I want to live my life next year. You know, as moms we sometimes get so caught up in the 24 hour-ness of it all that it becomes about survival more than about pro-active parenting and we start wishing for a break. If I can say I’ve taken away anything with this very, very difficult year, it would probably be this:

1) I’m going to cut out all TV when I get home. If time is the coin of my life, then I would rather spend it on something that it’s worth spending it on. I have lost hours with my kids (I start crying as I write that) and I don’t want to lose anymore. There is enough of me to properly divide between 3 beautiful little people without any of them feeling like a day went by without quality time with me – but I need to cut on the pointless, time-sucking activities.

2) The bible says in Titus that the mom’s duty is to be homeward focused. I don’t know what that means to everyone (and I’m sure it’s different for all) but I am going to sit before God and work out what that means for me. My focus is far too often on worrying and fretting about what I can do. Am I doing enough? Is there something I haven’t thought of? How can I possibly in these times focus on my children? My focus needs to be elsewhere so they never have to worry about anything. I need to do all the worrying now so that they don't have to do it later! I know it sounds silly but this is a constant battle in me and the ONLY THING IT DOES, is keep me out of the here and now. I miss the “Mommy, look at this picture I drew” because I’m thinking about “What’s gonna happen tomorrow?” The past few years have been an exceptional case, but it doesn’t change the fact that I’ve lost hours. (crying again)

The Bible says “That is why I tell you not to worry about everyday life – whether you have enough food and drink, or enough clothes to wear. Isn’t life more than food, and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds. They don’t plant or harvest or store food in barns, for your heavenly Father feeds them. And aren’t you far more valuable to Him than they are? Can all your worries add a single moment to your life.”

Do we really read that verse for what it is - the God of the Universe telling us to do something. Or do we just skip over it and think "That's unrealistic."

There are always going to be those people who will say “Look at the storm! What are you going to do about it? How can you be this casual? Are you stupid? Do you not care about your children?” These words have pierced me in the past but after having done it that way and seeing that it does not add one drop of joy to your life, I am now going to be lifting my shield of faith when words like that come along.

I choose not to worry - and that's not "the gospel according to Nikki". That's the gospel according to God.

I am anti-religion

I’m feeling very emotional. As I finished updating my facebook status saying how grateful I am for all the best things in my life, I think the reality of it must’ve hit home because I felt like I’d just been stabbed in the heart (in a good way). How do I repay? I can’t.

The gift of salvation is the one I want to focus on because I think that’s the one that brought me to my knees in tears just now. When God opens your eyes to what He’s done, when you’re standing at the cross and you know exactly why it’s happening, when you hear for yourself the words come out of Jesus mouth “It is paid in full”, it cuts you to the deepest place in your heart. No-one can explain the feeling to you. No-one can do the cross justice with words... The moment when Jesus breathed his last breath, the curtain tearing in two, the sky going black, the soldiers saying “Surely He was the Son of God…” That was the first time in history when we could say with confidence “Oh death, where is your sting?” because God in His infinite mercy had actually done it. He’d taken our debt upon Himself and paid it and opened heaven’s doors to sinners like us.

It really is apt that the date we write down everyday is based on a time before Christ and a time after Him because He cut history in half when He came to earth in the body of a man, taking on all our frailties, living a sinless life and paying the price for our sins with His own blood. It is MinDBlowing.

People often say to me “Are you religious?” and my answer to that is “No. I am anti-religion. I am saved by the blood of Jesus. I do not have to earn my own way to salvation through religious practices and doing the right thing. I’m a sinner… always was, always will be. But the price for my sins has been paid. And I have a relationship with God. I know Him and I know His voice. And the closer I get to Him, the more I want to dedicate my every waking breath to Him. The more I look at Him, the more the things the world has to offer fade away. The more I know about Him, the more He becomes enough for me.

Stephen Covey says in his book “The Seven Habits of Highly effective people” that we must “Begin with the end in mind”. Think about what you want to hear on the day you die. Once you’ve worked out what you want people to be saying at your funeral, then you have a clear idea of what your real goals are. The words I want to hear on the day I die when I’m standing at the gate of eternity are “Welcome home, my good and faithful servant.” So if I follow Covey’s advice and begin with the end in mind, then that is my goal in this short life.

Anastasia's little miracle

Guess what happened today! My little girl got a taste of the kingdom of God. I watched it happen and I knew in my heart what was going on. Anastasia always gives everything away. Seriously. Not half her packet of sweets, the whole packet… Not her worst toy that she doesn’t play with, her best toy that she loves… And she does it with a joyful heart. Nobody tells her to do it and she never moans later about the things she’s given up. It truly must be something the Lord has put in her and I never try and curb it. I”ll say to her sometimes “Stashe, you don’t have to give that way Babes,” but I’ll never say no… even if it is something I just spent a whole lot of bucks on!… The reason I don’t ever stop her is because I would never want to rob her of her reward in heaven.

The Bible says

 “It is more blessed to give than too receive” – Acts 20 v 35

 “I tell you the truth, anyone who gives you a cup of water in my name because you belong to Christ will certainly not lose his reward.” – Mark 9 v41

 “Freely you have received, freely give.” – Matthew 10 v 8

 “Calling his disciples to him, Jesus said, “Truly I tell you, this poor widow has put more into the treasury than all the others. 44 They all gave out of their wealth; but she, out of her poverty, put in everything—all she had to live on.” – Mark 12 v 43 – 44

Time and time again, I have seen that you can not out-give God because He owns way more than you’ll ever own. The Bible is so clear when it says “Do not be deceived: God cannot be mocked. A man reaps what he sows.” (Galations 6 v 7).

God tells us to consider eternity in every decision we make – "Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy, and where thieves break in and steal. But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moth and rust do not destroy, and where thieves do not break in and steal.” (Matthew 6 v 19 and 20). This scripture has become my goal in life. Every time we do anything for somebody no matter how small because they are a disciple, the Bible says we will get our reward in heaven. A reward that moth and dust CAN NOT destroy and a reward that will last an eternity. It takes real faith to live this way, because you have to believe God at His word and live for eternity rather than for this short life, which the Bible calls just a breath (Job 7 v 7). This short life comes and goes and we can choose to build up our treasures here where moth and dust will destroy, or to build up our treasures in heaven where nothing will destroy.

On that day when we stand at the gateway of eternity (and it will come for everyone, that is a 100% certainty), the Bible says our works are going to be tested by fire. The pointless, arbitrary, selfish things are going to be burnt up, but every little thing we did for Christ will stand the test and the Bible says we will not be without our reward for these things. (1 Corinthian 3 v 13, 14 and 15) Isn’t that exciting? I find that so cool…

The kingdom of God does not operate the way the world operates. God says “Seek first the Kingdom of God and all his righteousness, and I will provide what you need.” (Matthew 6 v 33) And God doesn’t have a short memory. He wants to bless us! The Bible says “If you, then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him!” (Matthew 7 v 11)

When we were doing well in about 2006, we felt God tell us to give someone a car. So we did. We didn’t know why him of all people, we just listened and did it, anonymously. After we gave it, our faith was so built up by the wisdom and mercy of our God in that guy’s life – we realized that he could now get to work and earn a living and he could also go fetch his kids and spend time with them on a regular basis – a lot of fruit from a small bit of obedience. Years later, when we had lost everything in the property market crash, we returned back to SA and needed a car. Lo and behold, someone gave us a car. Things like this happen all the time in the Kingdom of God. God loves a cheerful giver and He himself is a cheerful giver. He’s looking for people to be his hands and feet on earth, to notice who has need and to give without counting the cost. Why? Not because he needs our little goods but because what we do with our goods shows where our heart lies! And the thing that God is most interested in is our heart. “For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.” (Matthew 6 v 21).

This is so exciting to me. Watching God in action is so faith-building…. Which brings me back to Anastasia. When she got into the car today, she had a sweet sosatie from school. It looked so yummy. She immediately gave the whole thing to Christian as she got into the car. I said to her “Stashe, you don’t have to.” She said “I want to.” And that was that. We then went to the Crazy Store and Christian chose something he wanted and Anastasia chose something she wanted. I told them they would both have to save up to get it. On our way out of the shop, a lady came to me and said “I just feel I need to buy your little girl the thing she wants.” So the lady told her to run and choose and paid for it at the till. Anastasia left with that little desire of her heart and Christian with nothing. He has said to me “You’re not fair Mom. How can you not buy me what I want?” I said “But Christian, I said to you both I’m not buying anything. A stranger gave Anastasia what she wanted and quietly thought to myself “I can’t get in the way of God. When He opens a door, no man can close it.” (

About 6 months ago, someone who Anastasia has never met walked upto her and said “My girl, at your young age, you already have an inheritance in heaven. You already have rewards stored up there.” You go, my precious girl. And I hope Mommy takes a leaf out of your book.

"Never" is a very strong word...

The word “never” is one of the strongest words in the dictionary. It means “Not even once, in the past, present or future - not ever.” It’s an ‘absolute’ word.

The Bible uses the word “never” in 1 Corinthians 13 v 8…. I read it this morning and I started thinking about the bigness of that. In a life where we sometimes succeed and sometimes fail, there is something we can do that will never fail…. Not ever, not even once.

Nick’s going away this weekend and for some reason, I am totally overwhelmed at the thought of being alone for four days. I’ve barely been able to focus because it feels like I’m about to face this MaSSive ChallEnge - Will I cope with our three small children on my own, will I be scared at night, what will we do for fun, how am I gonna get them all to bed at night? I know - It sounds ridiculous but for some reason, this thing has me gripped with fear! My brilliant plan was to (a) survive and (b) count down the days until he gets back. Good plan Batman! It took me days to come up with that one…lol

Anyway, the point is I haven’t been myself this week and when I read 1 Corinthians 13, the word “never” stcuk out to me… I haven’t been a great wife this week and I haven’t been a great parent. I’ve been lost in my own thoughts and biting my nails… Absent minded… my mind’s been absent… And I’ve been wondering – how will I ever get it right to be a godly wife, a wise and loving parent, a faithful friend AND use all my gifts to the max to grow the kingdom?

I want to become 1 Corinthians 13.

What is impossible with man, is possible with God. He can turn me into 1 Corinthians 13. Come on Lord – instill these things so deep in me that no-one and nothing can pull them out!

“Love is patient, Love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Love NEVER fails.”