"You can blame circumstances, but backsliding always begins in the heart (AW Tozer)"
We were driving back from Kommetjie yesterday and I had 2 hours
of quiet time in the car to think. There was no talking and I knew
that Nick was thinking too. We’d had a fun weekend but as soon as there are
quiet moments, our thoughts usually revert to the question of “What now? How do
we move forward? How long before the break through?”
I am usually an optimist of note, but my faith took a knock
at the end of last year (which I will tell you about sometime) and I am ashamed to say I didn't fight for it like I should have. So increasingly I have noticed out-of-character
pessimistic sentences dropping out of my mouth over the last few months. Nick
even said to me the other day “Oh no, no, no, no, NO! There is only room for
one pessimist in this family. It has never been you, it doesn’t suit you, and
it will never be you. That place is taken!”
I think I can sum it up by saying that my usual prayer to
God over the years of “I know it is coming!” recently turned into “Is it
coming?” and then subconsciously into a quiet “It’s not coming, is it?”
Unbelief! In a God who has only ever been good to me. In a God who sent His only son to save me. Tears fill in my eyes as I confess that because I can't believe I opened the door to it and allowed it in. Unbelief is a very dangerous sin to toy with. I listened to
two David Wilkerson preaches today and in the one, he spoke about unbelief.
What is unbelief for a Christian? It’s not the denial of Christ. It’s not going
so far as to say “God doesn’t answer prayers.” No, we would never say that.... It is the quiet nagging thought
in the back of your mind that says “God does answer prayers. Just not mine.” That
is the sin of unbelief in a Christian, and it is not to be toyed with or fed or
justified… not even for a second. It is rooted in self and ultimately leads to the death of your faith, your joy and your peace. When you allow unbelief in, first of all it grieves the heart of God. And second of all, you turn to your own answers, your own plans and fear becomes the rudder for your life.
If we were to write down every miracle we have seen in our
lives, most of us who have walked a road with Christ could write a book of
testimonies. There have been miraculous moments of provision, moments of
breakthrough, moments of freedom, answers to prayers, healings, and lives
turned around… And yet, when the crisis comes, we sometimes forget about all the
Lord has said and done and we panic… “The hardest part of faith is the last
half hour.”
As we neared home yesterday, I turned to Nick and spoke my thoughts out loud:
“I choose to hope. For the sake of my body, for the sake of
my soul, for the sake of my spirit. I choose to hope. Even if there is no
earthly reason to do so. Even if all the natural evidence points to the
situation being hopeless - I CHOOSE TO WAKE UP EVERY MORNING WITH HOPE. If my
hope is sick, I am not going to kill it. I’m going to give it medicine and make
it well again! I need it. I’m going to treat it like the precious gift it is
and feed it and nurture it.”
Hope stems from the belief that everything that happens to
me has been sifted through the hand of a God who is loving, good and sovereign.
Hope says no matter what it looks like - God is in control, He loves you and He
knows what He is doing. He is busy fulfilling His plan for your life. He is the author and the finisher of your faith. Do not let go of the promises He has given you.
There is a thread that runs through the Bible when it comes
to the promises of God…. Every time God makes a promise to someone, the first
thing He does is sentence that promise to death... We hear the promise, we know
it’s God, it settles in the sand of our heart like an anchor – and then God
rolls in death upon achievement of that promise. The promise doesn’t die – but
all human means of achieving the promise dies... And as death rolls over every
human possibility of fulfilling the promise, we have what David Wilkerson calls
a “window or faith” …. a precious moment in the Lord when we come to the end of all of our human efforts and nothing has worked. At that moment, we can choose to
doubt God, or we can choose to say “I don’t understand anymore, Lord. I don’t
know why I am going through this. As people look at my life, they may doubt you
Lord. But I WILL NOT! And if I live like this until I get to glory one day, so
be it!”
People speak about “windows of opportunity”to get things done, but God works
with “windows of faith”. A window of faith appears when there is no possible
human plan. If you can figure it out, there is no place for a window of faith…
But when you can’t figure it out, THAT is where your window of faith appears. As
every bit of human hope dies in the promise, there appears a glorious window of
faith for you to believe God when circumstances seem to show there is no hope.
We think that we need all of our ducks in a row for the promises of God to be fulfilled, but God does not operate out of human wisdom. When there aren’t even any ducks in sight and we have cried and prayed and fasted and come to the point where we say “Not my will, but yours” – THAT is when He moves.
We think that we need all of our ducks in a row for the promises of God to be fulfilled, but God does not operate out of human wisdom. When there aren’t even any ducks in sight and we have cried and prayed and fasted and come to the point where we say “Not my will, but yours” – THAT is when He moves.
If you’re in an impossible situation, don’t waste your
window of faith. When you find yourself in a situation you don’t understand at
all, think to yourself “God, you’ve given me an opportunity to have faith in an impossible situation. Just like Abraham. Just like Joseph. Just like Noah. Just like David. I
am not going to waste this opportunity that I have to stand in the ruins of my situation and declare GOD IS GOOD! As for me, I trust in
you. And I will trust in you until my last breath. Even when the people around
me doubt your goodness, Lord, let it be known that I will not.”
The Bible says we are surrounded by a great cloud of witnesses…
here are some things that some of these witnesses said when all the doors
of human possibility closed and their window of faith appeared:
“Though he slay me, yet will I hope in him.” – (JOB)
“If we are thrown into the blazing furnace, the God we serve
is able to deliver us from it, and he will deliver us from Your Majesty's hand.
But even if he does not, we want you to know, Your Majesty, that we WILL NOT
serve your gods or worship the image of gold you have set up." (SHADRACH,
MESHACH AND ABEDNEGO)
"Look, I see heaven open and the Son of Man standing at
the right hand of God." (STEPHEN - RIGHT BEFORE HE WAS STONED TO DEATH FOR
HIS FAITH)
“Be merciful to me, Lord, for I am in distress; my eyes grow
weak with sorrow, my soul and body with grief. My life is consumed by anguish
and my years by groaning; my strength fails because of my affliction, and my
bones grow weak. Because of all my enemies, I am the utter contempt of my
neighbours and an object of dread to my closest friends— those who see me on
the street flee from me. I am forgotten as though I were dead; I have become
like broken pottery. For I hear many
whispering, “Terror on every side!” They conspire against me and plot to take
my life. But I trust in you, Lord; I say, “You are my God.” – (DAVID)
“"My Father, if it is possible, may this cup be taken
from me. Yet not as I will, but as you will." (JESUS – RIGHT BEFORE HE
WENT TO THE CROSS)
To become a legend of the faith, we need to embrace
impossible situations and use them as an opportunity to trust in God against all
the human odds. Like Will Marais says “When I am
surrounded by the unknown, I go back to what is known! God is good. God is love. God is sovereign. And God is merciful. And that is all I need to know.”
Awesome words, thank you :D
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